Tonight a few feelings hit me. None of them were good.
I awoke from a nap, earlier, and felt... nothing. No feelings towards anything or anybody. Like a limp shell of a man.
Then I thought about problem solving, and solutions, and how to get out of this money-based situation, and I freaked out a bit. I've cried multiple times tonight -- emotional tears, the ones you feel fall down your face slowly.
I'm still a gigantic mess.